On Wednesday, August 24th, 2016, something inside my mind broke. Snapped. Completely unhinged. After years journeying through the life of an individual with a mental illness (Bipolar II), I experienced a crash unlike any other.

Decisions no longer seemed in my control as my mind went on autopilot and put me on a crash course to my final end. As darkness fell and the hours extended into Thursday the 25th, I boarded an Amtrak train with multiple options for committing acts that could never be undone.

This is the story of those hours, my subsequent rescue, the years that led up to that moment, and the unfolding history that is being written of the days that lie ahead.